Here I am send me… May 3, 2009

So today I had a really amazing God day.  Jesus for SOME crazy reason loves me SO SO much.  Well, I can’t say its JUST me.  Its me AND my husband. He loves us both incredibly.  I had this incredibly long and peaceful prayer time with Him the other day and spoke to him about how I have some potential worries about the money running out.  I still don’t have a job and I really wanted to be starting one for next week.  I haven’t heard back from my potential employer yet, and the 3 times before when I had thought I was close to getting a job (but this time I was FAR more certain) they all ended up falling through.  SO…I told Him about those fears and concerns, and He reminded me SO loudly “Have you ever been hungry and not been fed, have you ever not had lights, heat, air conditioning, clothing, a clean bed?  Have I EVER not provided for you?”  And I said Abba Father, I hear you loud and clear but its still hard.  And He said submit, just submit kid.  So…I did.  I got the peace.  THE peace.  That only God, my Abba Father, will bring.  But I still have the peace that this is the job.  SO…I fell into the peace of I will be cared for.  And also that if He wills that I should be in this job that is exactly where I will be.  PEACE that passes all understanding.  Only a few people know what I mean about that!!  And that peace, thankfully is what brings me through so so much turmoil and struggle.

So today, after a lovely day with my amazing ‘The Wandering Brit’ (blog) husband, we arrived home to shower up and get ready for a wonderful night of fellowship with members of our worship and tech team.  We pick up our mail, and find a card from his Dad.  I always love getting cards, so we open it and there are 2 I get to open one, which is an adorable change of address card.  Then Dave opens the other which is another super cute card with a check.  I thought it said $500, which I was like   WHY and WHOA!  But it was $1500 and it was in pounds, not dollars.  I couldn’t believe it.  I just kept saying thank you Dad, thank you Jesus.  Thank you Lord.  Thank you Abba Father.  Thank you Daddy who loves us SO.  I took a shower and prayed and just worshiped and thanked God.  And I can’t believe how much He loves us.  Whenever a shadow of doubt starts to be cast by the enemy, God swoops in with his mighty love and his awesome grace and mercy and lights it all up.  I am thankful.  Utterly thankful.  God let me know that we should put the money into our highest interest earning account and save it for our house downpayment.  That gave me GREAT happiness.  Because He’s not only saying things are gonna be okay, and things are going to turn around…He’s saying things are gonna be GREAT and I got it totally under control kid!

I might not know a lot about a lot, but I know my Jesus.  I also know that when you allow Him to be KING of your life, and you surrender to Him; When you decide I have been SAVED by the blood of Jesus, you almost expect things to be easier.  NO NO NO.  LOL.  BECAUSE you are saved by Him, you will endure more.  BUT because of His love, you CAN.  I learn more and more each time my God puts me through a challenge, a tough part of my life.  I learn to rely more on Him and less on me.  I cannot do it without Him.  I cannot do it alone, and I don’t have to.  Because of His love I can and WILL conquer any obstacle put in my path.

May you find a love and peace like this, and may you find it in the ONE true God who will give you a love more abundant and unconditional than you have ever known.  May your life be one that gives testimony to others in the way you live.  May you live like Jesus and LOVE like Jesus, then you will be LOVED like Jesus loved.  And there is NO greater love than the love my Abba Father gives. Grace & Peace

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